College

Just went to a BBQ going away party and for some reason, I always feel like an outsider. I guess cuz all the people there have known each other for years and years. Their little group of friends all went to college together, work together, and play together. I'm just like a fringe person. That's what I always hated about Penn. There wasn't one group of friends I could call my own. Just lots of random people. I really wish I could redo college all over and approach it in a totally different manner. I would have played a lot more, been more confident in my own abilities, and just have been more open to new experiences. Sure, it's not too late but that stage has passed. Yet, I think I'm fucking up this stage too...whatever it is.